Deep Well Discipleship

PRESS ON Confession time, and this ones pretty obvious, my writing is sporadic at best.  I started blogging about my cancer last fall and when I started chemo I didn't feel like writing about it much less thinking about it.  I can honestly say that chemo is not only the most horrific thing I have experienced but it is the assuredly, at least at this time, the worst.  Throughout the process of treatment and feeling sick I found myself angry many times.  I cried out to God "Why me"?  I asked God why His intent was to kill me.  I was hurt, devastated, and lonely but God heard my cries and simply said "Why not you?"  I was shocked and stunned at this thought but I soon found my way into Philippians 4:11-14, that infamously misused passage of scripture.  It was there God spoke deeply into my pain and reminded me of His glory. Paul writes "...for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.  I know how to be brought low, and I...

Hospitals, mis-diagnoses, and the yo-yo effect On Tuesday April 22nd I found myself in the ER at Covenant Hospital in Lubbock Texas.  I was turning highlighter yellow and I felt less than chipper.  By midnight I was in my room on IV fluids only and already starting to do what I do best... worry!  Everybody has to be good at something and I do very well when it comes to overthinking things and worrying about what might be.  The GI doc on call came in to visit late that night and discussed the different tests they would perform the next day and what was going to occur.  I was still under the impression it was just my gall bladder...  Boy, what did I know.  I wasn't even worried about the right things. The next day a procedure known as an ERCP was performed to see what was going on with my gall bladder.  That was followed up with an MRI.  Let me pause here to say this.  I am slightly claustrophobic and I sinned when they took me to thi...

The Journey  Part 1 Beginnings I really don't know where to start but I suppose I will begin with two things, the verse that has been a foothold in what feels like shifting sands, and where the journey begins.  Psalm 55:22 has been the go to verse in my prayers and in my meditations so often recently.  David writes "Cast your burden upon the LORD, and He will sustain you.  He will never allow the righteous to be shaken." What powerful words of encouragement and what an incredible reminder to stay focused on the LORD throughout this journey I have been set on.  As I begin to unfold this journey I want to be clear, there is no doubt that God's hand is, has been, and continues to be working in a powerful, sovereign way. In March of 2014 I began feeling very sick.  I had already felt that my energy was down and I wasn't functioning normally.  At first we thought it might just be a stomach bug that was lingering on much longer than usual.  We ...